I'm not one for feeling as if I'm under a microscope, but these days, that's all I feel. I feel as if I'm being observed and having all my character flaws recorded and discussed like some tests on a lab rat.

Everything is cold if not unusually luke warm.

I feel as if I'm being lied to and repeatedly being told that I'm lying to myself. How is it that others can so easily tell me that my feelings are ingenuine when what I try to do is make sure I'm feeling the things that I say?

It's bad enough that I'm confused with myself and then others come along and try to push their thoughts of me, on me.

I feel such an abundance of things that it's just not gonna work right now if I try to sit down and blurt them all out over this thing.

Anyway.... I submited a profile to make out club and got added and the weirdest thing happened tonight. Some kid decided to fuck with the 808 message board and put pictures up of the Hawaii kids so out of the blue some kid messages me and tells me my pic is up on the message board as the background. But it's not anymore so it's ok. Weird enough though. Even if it was only for a minute.

Nothing more to write, really.

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