I think life has it's way of testing me for the things that will come in my future. It has this strange way that really gets inside of my head and fucks things up just enough so that I go a little crazy and think about everything with the type of detail that would make for a perfect screen play.

The sounds, smell, sights, emotions, everything that I need to analyze exactly what is going on with me.

But I'm still confused.

I think I'm gonna talk to my doctor tonight about going back on fasting because planning and thought at this point causes way to much stress and simply put, I'm getting fatter. Not a good thing at all.

This way I'll have a little clarity and some time to think and meditate.

But first I have to call my psychologist.

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