My mind is in a state I cannot describe. Things around me are not as they seem. I want to swallow the ball in my throat that is keep in everything that I want to say.

I am not being myself.

Today so far has been full of walking and anticipation. Anticipation of whether the truth will accidently slip from my mouth and cause the commotion that it tags along with it. Would everything be so bad if I set my secrets free.

Life everyone else, I fear rejection, and I fear it badly.

Funny though, I never take the time to sit and actually let things happen. Grr

N/m this whole entry.. it's shit.

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